Black, White, and Color

Who am I? That is the hardest question to answer for a college freshman. In a sense my life-timetime-time has beneficial begun. I am finally on my consume essay to figure out who I am and what I want to do with my life. Does anyone find out who they are as a person at the age of eighteen? This is the age where a major transition is make from teen to a legal adult. I am going from organism a child to being on my own making my own decisions. When I look at myself I delay so many different things, some are things I intimate in the onetime(prenominal) and I carry with me and others are things I hope to achieve or deform.In Core one hundred ten this year I learn that I could connect myself into what we were study through studying psychological science and science. At the stemma of the year I didnt understand why we were learning psychology and science in concert that now I understand they go in concert. Without science on that target would be no psychological evidence a nd without psychology scientist would not be able to test genuine theories. Because of Core 110 I gouge look deeper into myself by the insight I gained by studying psychology and science.In the disc Forty Studies That Changed Psychology, by Roger hock, he discusses Julian vomituss Locus of insure supposition of how individuals family the responsibleness for what happens to them. grass explains that there are two types of mass indwelling locus of maintain and external locus of lead (Hock 192). When people deliver the consequences of their behavior to be controlled by luck, fate, or berthful others, this indicates a judgement in what Rotter called an external locus of control.Conversely, he maintained that if people interpret their own wefts and personalisedity as responsible for their behavioral consequences, they trust in drive inledgeable locus of control (Hock 192). This is basically saying do you reckon that your destiny is controlled by yourself or by exter nal forces? Rotter believed that if a persons equallihood to view events from an versed, versus an external, locus of control is fundamental to who we are and can be explained from a social learning theory perspective (Hock 192).In his view, as a person develops from early childhood through childhood, behaviors in a stipulation situation are learned because they are followed by some form or reward, or livelihood (192 Hock). From the rewards and reinforcements you learn from as a child follow you throughout life and make you develop an external or internal interpretation of the consequences of your behavior. Rotter wanted to demonstrate two points first, make a test to footprint how individuals posses an internal or an external locus of control orientation towards life.Second, is to lot up how internals and externals display differences in their interpretations of the causes of reinforcements in the said(prenominal) situations (Hock 193). Rotter came up with a test called t he I-E Scale, which measured the extent to which a person possesses the character characteristics of internal or external locus of control. He did this by asking certain questions that internal people would only answer a certain panache and vice versa for the external people (Hock 193). In Rotters theory of locus of control I believe I have an internal locus of control because I control my own fate and destiny.My call down were very strict and always made sure I knew from in good order and wrong or else I would be punished. I grew up realizing I wouldnt win the lottery and I had to work hard to become successful. My locus of control is very grounded and I dont believe in luck. My portrait shows me on the playground looking towards the city in the background. It shows my goals and what I want to achieve but I am noneffervescent in black and sportsmanlike Im not there yet. Being at college has only given me a taste of what it authority to be an adult and be independent.I will on e twenty-four hour period achieve all my goals, but until then Im quieten a kid stuck on the playground until one day I can reach the exciting city life. Another archetype from Roger Hocks book is the study done by Langer and Rodin who look at the effects of choice and how it affects people. Everyday a person makes a choice or decision, When your sense of control is threatened, you experience negative feelings (anger, outrage, indignation) and will stand up by behaving in ways that will restore your erudition of personal freedom (Hock 150).Its like what kids do when they are told to do something or forbidden to do something, they either refuse to do it or do the exact adversary. Hock states, What it all boils down to is that we are happier and more telling people when we have the power to choose (Hock 151). This is a problem for two teens and fourth-year people, the only neglection is that elderly people sustain their rights where teens just arent old enough to get them yet. Elderly people lose their rights and control when they premise a nursing home.Langer and Rodin thought, If the loss of personal duty for ones life causes a person to be little happy and healthy, then increasing control and power should have the opposite effect (Hock 151). They wanted to test this by directly enhancing personal power and choice for a group of nursing home residents. They predicted that the patients who were given the control should demonstrate make betterments in mental alertness, activity level, satisfaction with life, and other demonstrable measures of behavior and attitude (Hock 153).Langer and Rodin compared two floors of a nursing home, one given privileges the other stayed the same. The floors were given questionnaires about how they were treated by the end of the troika weeks. The results showed (on chart 20-1 on page 154) that the differences in the two groups were extreme, which proved Langer and Rodins theory correct about the positive effects of choice and personal power (Hock 153). Langer and Rodin pointed out that their study, combined with other previous research, demonstrated that peoples lives improve when they are given a greater sense of personal responsibility (Hock 153).Being in control is a big thing for eitherone. When I turned eighteen last year nothing changed for me except I was one year older and I could vote. My parents heretofore treated me the same and I still had the same curfew. In their eye I was still a child. However, everything changed when I went to college. I became in control of to the highest degree everything except I still had to go to school. Being in control is a good deal(prenominal) a powerful thing. I couldnt imagine losing all my control like the elderly do. When I went home for Thanksgiving I disjointed most of my control to my parents and it upset me.I felt like the elderly people. My picture shows a divided line between black and white side and the pretense side showing I cant g et to what I want to be until I completely surface up and my parents treat me like a true adult. Im stuck on the dark side wanting control, wanting color. In the book Accidental Mind, by David J. calx, he discusses how percept is tied to emotion. Linden states, Clearly, the perception/emotion distinction cuts deep into the way we think about the learning and the ways we deal with its dysfunctions (Linden 98).He is basically saying that the time we stool or are aware of a sensation, emotions are already engaged. dickens examples are Capgras Syndrome and people who have been blinded by damage to the primordial visual cerebral mantle. Capgras syndrome is when someone can still visually identify objects and valet de chambre faces, but they dont evoke any emotional feeling. plurality who are blinded by damage to the primary visual cortex can accurately locate an object in their visual theme even though they have no conscious awareness of beholding anything (Linden 99). The im portant point here is that visual information is rapidly cater into emotional centers in the brain, which make it impossible to severalise emotion from perception in experience (Linden 100). Linden concludes that the examples may only use vision, the teaching still applies broadly to all of the sense, emotions is integral to sensation and the two are not easily separated (Linden 100). In my self-portrait everything is pastel to show that where I am in my life is distorted yet connected and flows.Im transitioning from being a teen to almost an adult. I see and experience things that are fair and also unfair. The color is so blind drunk to me yet I still have to wait for it. I am stuck on the playground trying to amuse myself until I am allowed to enter the real world. The playground and city are tied together because I will one day play on both. Another example from Lindens book is the study on identical fit. Linden states that in certain faces some mental and behavioral traits come from genes.In the experiment they used identical twins (monozygotic twins) who were separated after birth and elevated by different families and monozygotic twins who were raised together to compare with (Linden 53). For example, identical twins given psychological tests to pin-point personality traits, such(prenominal) as extroversion or conscientiousness or openness, showed that identical twins have tended to share many of these traits whether or not the twins were raised together (Linden 53).The point was to see if twins in the same surround and twins in separate environments were tested on being similar. Lindens final stage was that, in children and young adults from middle class or affluent families, in studies that have used a combination of twins, identical and nonidentical, raised together and apart, about 50 percent of general intelligence can ascribe to genes, with the remainder determined by environmental factors (Linden 54). Basically, genes influence general i ntelligence but to a lesser degree than they influence personality (Linden 54).When dealings with general intelligence, both genes and environment contribute, but in the extreme case of environment deprivation seen in the poorest household, the effects of environment become much greater and largely overcome the effects of genes (Linden 54). In the end the tests cogitate that, identical twins raised apart are significantly more alike in measures of personality than nonidentical twins raised apart (Linden 54). This can conclude that there is some contribution due to genes.The main point of the twin experiment was to show that twins who grew up in separate environments were surprisingly more similar then expected. No matter what environment I am in I am still the same person. I can be on the playground playing or in the city working but no matter what I am still me. I grew up on the playground and learned many lessons that I will carry with me when I leave there. No matter how old I become or how aged I become I will still have the same personality and drive to achieve all my goals and dreams.Anything can happen if I set my mind to it and be patient. Eventually Ill be in color like Mickey Mouse. My self-portrait shows the growth a person going from a child to a young adult. In humanity it is normal for a child to continually get frustrated about their age. A twelve-year-old is almost a teen, eighteen-year-old is a legal adult but not a true adult, and a twenty-year-old is so button up to being twenty-one. Being a teen at any age is rough but every year is a year closer to something different. I may be stuck as a legal adult thriving to be ndependent from my parents but in humankind Im not even close to being able to be on my own. Im stuck, like most of the other eighteen-year-olds in the world, trying to figure out who they are. I am just one of millions who feel this way, yet in reality what would I even do with all my independence and freedom? I am a freshm an in college who really doesnt know what I want to do with my life. I wont know until I figure out who I am as a person. This is why my self-portrait is in transition because before I can do anything with my life I have to answer the question who am I?